World of my own

Closing Down

2006-12-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

I decided to close this blog. Tag me if u wan to noemy new blog URL if i have e mood to start another one. i thank all for reading this blog.

what a ger wants

2006-11-24T01:02:00.000+08:00

那天看了综艺大哥大，听了台湾名嘴陶子说的一句至理名言：

“女人想要的是男人记得她说过的话。。。”

这是真的。她举了个例子，她的老公，李李仁曾经说过要带她出国度假。可是因为工作太忙了，所以他对陶子说：“对不起，我最近比较忙，没时间带你出国。等我们两工作忙完了再去。”

重点是，他还记得，难怪陶子这么爱他。

我也会长大！

2006-11-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

我想长大！我很努力的想长大！我也会长大！我真的很想得到认同，很想得到信赖！

可能我的数度不够快，达不到你对我的期望，但我有努力。我希望你能看得到，赞同。

我也是一个需要认同，赞美的人。我不贪心，一点点也很好了。

爱情篇。。

2006-11-12T20:13:00.000+08:00

感谢大家对我生日的那篇华语文章的热烈回响。哈哈。好开心。

这几天，有好多令我开心的事呀。哈哈。有朋友刚向我另一个朋友求婚。好幸福。

男生做了个简单而又很窝心和感动，有关于两人的啪拖故事的短片。看了短片之后，那音乐和画面不断在我脑海里播放。我想因为不知道会有什么答案，当下男生的心情一定是紧张万分，忐忑不安吧。哈哈。总而言之，真的很为他们高兴。

另一个朋友的男友刚到美国工作。几天前，看到朋友的MSN名。“用我的晚安陪你吃早餐”。看了我都感动。好有意义。由于美国和新加坡有时差，所以新加坡的晚上是美国早上，因此就有了“用我的晚安陪你吃早餐”。很感动吧。

他们两明年就要结婚了，打算在圣陶沙举行婚礼。

对我而言，圣陶沙是一个很浪漫的地方，有海边，沙滩，星星。能手牵着手在沙滩上漫步，听着海浪声，躺在沙子上，涌入爱人的怀抱里，看着天上璀璨夺目的星星，真是浪漫！

当我说在圣陶沙举行婚礼好浪漫，我的朋友却说能和自己心爱的人一起踏上红地毯本生就已经是一件浪漫的事。这个答案让我愣了一下。我可以感觉到他们的爱是多么的深，多么的真，好令人羡慕。我一直认为浪漫是包含着惊喜，甜言蜜语等等，但她的这句话，却让我对浪漫有了另一番见解，原来浪漫是这么简单。说真的，我很羡慕她。能够找到一个你可以托夫终生，一辈子在你身边遮风挡雨，和你一起继续走的人，真的不简单。

好多的感触呀。

爱情可以让你开心，雀跃万分，让你痛测心扉捉摸不定对方在想什么，让你可以为了对方做出一些平时不会做的事。爱情，一个奇妙的东西。

我又有了新的领悟，你呢？希望你们会喜欢我和你们分享的这篇文字。

在此，恭喜那些即将和心爱的人一同踏上生命中另外一段路程。祝你们永远开心，永远恩爱。 =）

2006-11-07T11:43:00.000+08:00

终于，星期六到了。前一天，我好紧张，好怕事情会不是我所期待的。还好，一切都好顺利。星期五晚上，我去GIANT 做最后的准备。到家了，冲了凉上网跟朋友聊天。过后，涂指甲油。搞到来，三点才睡。

各天，九点就起身准备。帮忙炸些食物就冲冲去准备，把自己打扮一翻。哈哈。好多人说我的妆很浓，我不得不承认。本小姐我个人扶资不好，没办法。哈哈。。最重要可以拍出美美，完美无瑕的照片，拥有永恒的回忆。=）经过一翻与时间的搏斗，终于好了。

然后，我的朋友, 经雄来了。去到巴刹拿订好的米粉和咖哩菜。因为妈妈的超好人缘，叔叔只收我二十块。过后，到了那里布置周围。吹了一些气球，幸好带了充气桶要不然我和美珍就有的受了。哈哈。我们两的脚踏在充气桶上使经的踩，好酸啊！在这要谢谢经雄，美珍，伟光，文伟的帮忙。爬高爬低，帮我挂气球等等。辛苦了!

客人一一到来。

处了我的家人和帮我朋友，

第一个是国锐。感谢你的花，真的很漂亮。谢谢你。你还真的尊首我们的约定，在我二十一岁生日送我花。真的很细心, 谢谢你我真的很开心！

第二个是我的理工学院的死党，谢谢你们费时间来。见到好久不见的朋友像是雪梅，比利，微微安真的好开心。我跟每个人的合照我会好好的珍藏。
对不起，我的招待不周使你们有些需要站。

第三个是我的小学朋友，真的是招待不周，对不起。谢谢你们的礼物。

第四个是我的最好的bitching伙伴。很惊讶他们送我一束太阳花上面还有一只小熊。我希望我可以像太阳花一样那样开朗. 他们还骗我说我喜欢的包包只剩最后一个,而是破破烂烂的. 因此, 买了另一个. 我就知道他们是骗我的, 哈哈,我太聪明了.

其他的khakis送了我现金. =)

最后, 是我的中学朋友. 他们也送我现金.

帮我的朋友们送了我一个包包和webcam. 一个我出国必要的东西. =)

在我这一生, 我只收过一朵花.今年收到了三束花. 第三束是经雄送的. 说真的, 是满惊讶的因为没想到.
那束花被一只大雄抱着, 一定很昂贵吧.谢谢你.

真的要感谢帮忙我的朋友,
- 给我发了封短信的瑞国, 告诉我要放心去享受那天, 给我打了强心针.
- 帮我载食物, 拿蛋糕, 跑来跑去等等的经雄,
- 帮我布置的美珍，伟光，文伟.
- 我的家人帮我准备好吃的食物

当然还有各位赏脸来跟我一起庆祝, 感谢你们.

那一天,我真的很很很x10高兴. 谢谢你们留下一个那麽美丽的回忆.说真的, 我还蛮想念那天, 希望时间能停留在当时.

我知道我很贪心, 哈哈.

永恒的回忆就够了! =) 我会竟早把照片放上来。

有好多东西要说，可是一时之间也不知从何说起。
只想说的是，谢谢老天让我认识了你们。
在我人生不同的阶段，派你们来守护着我。

特别谢谢那些听我捞哨的人。听我哭泣的人。帮我擦眼泪的人。当我有事时，立刻冲来我家找我，陪我到清晨，不让我一个人呆坐在家里胡思乱想的人。

有点肉麻吧？哈哈，但是肺腑之言。 =）

希望我没有露了任何人。如果名字写错了，告诉我。 :P

Specials thanks to a professional photographer who graduated from the school of Arts and Photography from London... haha.. saw it my dear?

2006-11-01T10:20:00.000+08:00

我的这场病拖了好久了。有一个星期了。希望可以快点好起来，星期六是个大日子。哈哈哈。。

星期六见！=）

2006-10-30T21:58:00.000+08:00

A v big thank you to my dearest lessy.

and pls take care of urself. anything pls call me.

and also thanks for those smses n concerns.

Next is, pls reply me if u all are going to my party anot. Thanks.

This week rather tired. A number of things happened. Going on a major emotional rollercoaster. on mc again. wonder wat is my boss's reaction. haha..

2006-10-24T18:53:00.000+08:00

yest was an awesome night. haha.. went to devil's bar with eroy, gr, sophia and wanhua. wow.. haha.. i was rather high i admit. haha.. among all the clubbing sessions i had, this is the first time i'm that high. haha.. really fun to swing out all those unhappiness. haha.. i bet yest all my img is gone until like dunno wat. haha.. heng only u guys saw. lol..

my wishlist is almost out..

1) K800i -- got to change to K750
2) Levis Jeans (Taken)
3) A pair of sneakers
4) A bag @ bugis village - $69.90 (Taken)
5) Money

haha.. ya.. that's abt it. tell me which items u all interested. haha..

2006-10-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

just came back from office's bbq at west coast. seriously not a gd place. haha.. alot of ants. omg. kept bitten by ants. sucks. so pain. somemore it's v hot. quite bored now. headache these few days. work is rather demoralising again.

as usual, thinking alot. i dun wish to. damn sian. i'm not happy, i dunno y. where can i find happiness? yest was damn down. no idea y. i hate this kind of feeling. sucks.. i dunno wat to say. i feel like toking to someone but i dunno wat to say. feeling really v xin ku. feel like saying but dunno how to say. my heart is so heavy. mayb it's time i shld go relax myself. when can i b happy again? i wan to be a positive n cheeerful ger.

2006-10-16T14:26:00.000+08:00

this is a serious complaint frm someone demanding that i have to update my blog. he say i'm forever stuck in the stairs on sat. haha..

ok.. i have been thinking alot. i really dunno if i'm thinking too much. but when one thing happen, it will lead me to think will it happen if the party is me etc. in short, i'm jealous. but i'm already v tolerant as compared to others. dunno wat to do. let's see how fate decides.

my bday is coming. haha.. not a hint. u all will recieve my invitation soon. bday not wedding. haha.. rest assure. haha.. did all the planning yest. very tired.. pls pardon me if e venue is v small. sorry.. u all squeeze abit k? sorry.

Many ask me wat i wan so i will b posting my wishlist soon. this one is copy rg's one. sorry dude, borrow me ur idea k? haha..

finally going to quit le.. telling my boss tml.. alittle scare. haha.. god bless
the haze is v bad today. dear all, pls take gd care of urself n drink more water..
my mum is at my big sis's hse. staying over for 1 week to take care of kids. all are welcome to jio me out for dinner. haha.. :P

2006-09-22T15:08:00.000+08:00

Last sat, i was trapped in staircase of Raffles City Tower. haha. ya.. i acc my fren back to her office to take something. but e lift only stops at 13th floor and 16th floor whereas her office is at 11th. so we went into this 16th floor one and decided to take e stairs down. finally we found e exit sign n walk down the stairs. i had this feeling that we cannot open the door to get out anymore, thus we go down to 15th floor n i tried to open e door. aft that went to 13th floor, oso cannot open. wow.. e 3 of us are so panic. nv in our life we got trapped in e stairs. den they suggest to walk down to 1st storey. so we walked down a few levels and we start to feel dizzy. haha.. suddenly we recalled that one of my fren saw her colic before we went to take e lift. haha.. so we called her up to rescue us. haha.. she had difficulties to find e lift we took, thus she appoarch e security for help. wow, so paiseh. heng e guard is still okok, din scold us or wat. haha.. den he brought us to 11th floor den when my fren went back n tell her colics, den she knows that she actually got access card to e lift. haha..

Wed, went over to sher's place wanting to give a surprise to lessy. he was feeling moody that day.. i really gave him a surprise. haha.. he din see mi at all when he was walking lo.. he say hi to sher den he saw me beside. haha.. think he's occupied with his deep tots.. before he came, i talk alot to sher. so long nv tok to her liao.. haha.. feels so gd to get back e feeling. think this is one of those few times that i really tok alot to her. haha..

Thurs, went lunch with yunnie. haha.. we oso tok alot.. tok alot on gossips. haha.. :P i really like individual gathering like this whereby u can tok heart to heart. by e way, kh bought his K800i le.. haha.. he's v impressed with e camera. haha.. gd.. next time go out with him can take more pic anytime anywhere. haha..

to my bitchy lessy: cheer up.. life still goes on.. =) we will b there to listen k?

while typing this entry, i felt giddy for like 30secs. wonder wat's wrong with my body. blood seems to be gushing to my head n i feel that my head is heavy. the words on my computer seems to b flowing..

edit:
wanna share a pic with u all.. My one nad only "whole" family photo

2006-09-14T17:32:00.000+08:00

ok.. someone is complaining y i din update blog. haha..

hrm.. yest went to send glen off. at e airport, i can really visualize wat will happen when it's my turn.. tell u all 1st, i will cry until v ugly one. so u all must be prepared. haha.. yest quite a large grp of his frens went. we feel rather awkward standing there lah. haha.. but still we engage in our small grp gossiping. haha.. really v fun when we keep on guessing n gossiping from wat we saw. haha.. is quite bad but enjoyable. hehe

saw glen's fren (e one going with him). her bf cried until eyes become a line. so sad n touching leh.. aiyo.. den he stood at the glass n his sight nv left the ger. wow.. that kind of eye contact is those "i will wait for you no matter how long"

it's actually more of a full of laughter gathering rather than a sad farewell. so every1 is rather happy n relax. quite scare e day when i need to fly off to another country. will b damn sad..

it's a small gathering after e chalet. realised every1 really changed alot. getting more n more outspoken etc. haha.. e feeling is like left me that still remains softspoken infront of ppl i dunno. hrm.. i really wish i can be v li hai in talking. everytime i see those new presenter speaks, i'm so envy. i need to take up talking n confidence course. haha.. any teachers willing to teach me how to improve? lol..

for e past 1 mth plus, i haven been having a gd slp. hai.. keep dreaming.. yest i dreamt that my hand (fingers to the wrist) is chopped off by some1. den it's used to hang in the bathroom to hold the shower! lame n weird rite. haha.. den after 2 days, finally someone willingly to bring the hand n mi to hospital to try to connect back. so u see, my dreams are ridiculous n i'm having bad breams like that almost everyday. hai.. it really feels v scary to have ur hand chopped off. e moment my eyes open, i quickly see if my hand is there. yesh.. it's right hand somemore. the one i always use. -.-

afternoon, tok to lessy. we told each other a story. stories of gers zhao sai. lol.. i think my story more interesting hor? haha.. with him ard on msn, there is bound to have laughters n bitching which really save me from boredom @ work. haha..

after sending glen off, i have alot of tots. keep visualizing who will come airport to send me off. who will have e highest possibilty to cry. haha.. thinking of how i can control crying. ahaha.. i think too much le.. but still i have a list of who will cry. lol. got ranking somemore. hehe

1)My sec sch frens which i think all of them will cry when 1 starts to.
2)My dearest Bitch, Lester Lee. He said before he will cry louder than my mum. lol.
3)Think my mum will cry abit. cuz she dun fang xin me e most. lol. although she DIN cry when my sis went over e other time.
4)Mayb ruoyun? haha.. think she will when she see ppl cry.

no more le.. haha.. ok, i think too much.. i think i will give a big hug to those that are closer to me. lol..

Long await

2006-08-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

So the long await chalet after one year is here. haha.. ya.. after one year, the grp is getting much smaller during check-in. kinda sad. when we reach there, it was dizzling abit. check-in n we slack abit in e room. was discussing abt sophia's socialogy lectures. haha.. y guys n gers hold hands, guy's hand is always infront. and the forever so cute billy ask abt how we wipe buttocks. haha.. we laugh until piang when he n eroy began their stimulating actions. haha.. so funny..

after that, it's e bbq time. as usual, the guys started e fire.. and we start to cook abit.. haha.. gr is v nice, always e one bbq-ing.. haha.. he tell us to stay away from the fire as all e gers r wearing contact lens. so me, eroy n rg went to buy cake to celebrate hl's bday.. walk walk walk n tok tok tok.. went back to the pit n saw e rest coming.. haha.. so finally e 5 gers met n e usual gers' talk. haha.. every1 is stress abt their lives. i guess that's how it's like.

we had photo-taking sessions. v fun sessions.. doing silly actions n all.. haha.. so fun.. as the time is getting late, most of them left. we had our showers n off we went to start drinking. haha.. the taste is rather weird for all the mixes. haha. but overall was quite fun.. i enjoy e talking sessions with them.. =)

when we came to checkout, it's left with e usual four. somehow i feel quite sad as the grp is getting smaller n smaller.. cant imagine e future. haha.. anyway it was a fun farewell chalet for glen. =)

2006-07-26T17:14:00.000+08:00

Had a new layout.. i like cuz it's so disney~ haha.. i fallen in love with baby disney characters especially baby mickey and minnie. =) haha.. i guess becuz i'm a ger ger bah.. haha

sat, went to gr's place for steamboat. it's really nice cuz i seldom have such homely gathering. mi and eroy plan his bday cake. haha.. choco exotic. yumyum.. morning i went for braces appt and i forgot to bring my hp out. :( no choice, i got to go back and take so decided not to meet gr and eroy @ suntec for shopping.

aft blowing the cake, i told them my fren once said must use mouth to take out 1 candle so that ur wish will b true. haha.. ya.. my main intention was only one but the rest suggested that he take out all candles with the candle stand oso. poor him, his chin was dipped inside the choco. haha.. after that went to his room and vivian off the lights and told us to look up. i was soooo amazed by wat i saw. a sky full of stars. it's v nice as the stars are glowing brightly. i din expect a guy's room will have these. haha. and we dig out things inside his room.. hehe.. like his photo albums.. really alot of childhood pics. even my niece oso dun have so much. as usual we drink and tok. v fun. hopefully our chalet will b like this, so fun. =)

today, i'm damn shocked.. my company is undergoing a major restructuring. i know some of my colics are leaving. today den i noe another 2 colics are leaving. omg.. and oso my TL is leaving. oh shit.. alot of things kao her one lo. once she's gone, i dunno wat to do man.. and now i'm doing 3 person's job. i dun wan to add on anymore man.. sian.. how i hope i can leave soon.. hai.. the stats are as follows: 10 ppl left in 4 mths! yesh.. and my office only got 15 person at e first place. wow.. god bless me man..

2006-07-24T14:55:00.000+08:00

i just had a body checkup in e morning. a very simple one. with urine test, calculation of blood pressure, BMI etc. and so, my body checkup results are low blood pressure, underweight and the rest are ok.. i'm abit shock that i'm underweight lah. haha..

recently i have been experiencing heart pain and dizziness. was quite scare becuz it keeps going on once in awhile. den today, e doc say low blood pressure will cause heart ache as the heart dont have enough strength to pump e blood. so will experience the pain. that time i need to hold on to my heart and really feel like punching it machiam doing CPR. yesh, it's quite a scary experience cuz scare will just die there.

it's better to do a full body checkup that cost abt 248bucks with a total of 57 tests. most impt, diet and execrise r the best to maintain ur health. take care all my frens. =)

i fall in love with this phone. omg.. so nice.. haha..

2006-07-17T15:49:00.000+08:00

Work is v v v v boring. Pat has resign last friday le. den today is 1st day without her, life is ji tao sian.. die le lah.. first day already like that. only mi and my other guy colic eat lunch tml. oh dear... how ar? den work nothing much to do, nobody online to tok to. super duper sian.. how am i going to tolerate for another 4 more mths? hai~

anyone suggest wat i can do? i surf finish blogs, friendster, taiwan yahoo online shopping. hai.. save me from boredom.

You Have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.

Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.

At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

What Temperment Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

2006-07-03T12:10:00.000+08:00

came across a pharse which i feel quite true. 每个人都是天上的天使，有一双翅鹏，当遇到喜欢的人，就会飞到人间把翅鹏折断和心爱的人在一起。所以不要伤害在你身边的人因为她/他已经没有翅鹏飞回天堂了。this apply to those in love ones. please treasure ur loved one besides u. =) but the story v sad lo. haha.. it's so noble, dunno who think of this story one. haha..

hrm.. this few weeks, some of my frens commented that i'm like always v busy and not able to meet them. not i busy lah, just that always e time clashes. i'm sorry.. i'm really not busy lah, so pls still ask me out next time k? =) den it makes me start reflecting whether i'm a gd fren anot? hai.. i try to balance the time with my frens.. mayb i'm not putting enough efforts to organise gathering etc :P cuz ppl ask me out den i go out type. haha. paiseh paiseh.. wait til i recover my stamina k? cuz ever since i work OT last mth, i'm always feeling tired.

i thank all my frens for being there for me whenever i feel like complaining and toking. u guys know urselves. =) thanks..

sat, i went to bugis to pray cuz recently like no v gd. i really hope my leg can recover fully cuz it's been dragging on v long. i haven go swimming for long long time so fat now. haha..

2006-06-15T18:09:00.000+08:00

i noe i very long time nv update le. haha.. been v v v busy with work.. everyday ot. ot until 2 am and 4 am on 2 particular days. it's so shag. i old le.. last time rush project still ok.. now cannot le.. haha.. seriously quite miss those days.. haha.. hrm.. although i work until sat morning 4am, i still managed to get up and go for e guys commission at safti. went with kayhui. talk quite abit. haha.. sometimes it's really gd to meet up like just 2 person. =) took alot of pictures cuz we cant spot where is glen standing. haha.. it's so hard to spot.

e parade starts at almost 6 where we reach by 5. waited quite long lo.. hrm.. so tired.. keep on yawning. it's quite touching when hundred of guys throw their hats. haha.. happy for them although i only noe 2 of e hundreds. haha.. wanted to meet up with glen but then we were too tired le. so headed home after a cup of ice choco. hehe..

it's been so long ever since i meet my xg, my da chang, my 2 bitches, my mei mei. it's been so long.... hrm.. must meet up soon..

oh ya, attend my sis's ROM on 20th may. she's pretty. haha.. ya... i'm quite close to my this sis. happy for her.. haha.. the rom was held at amara hotel. it's soooo nice.. e room itself is v nice..

i really forgot wat i did for the past few weeks le.. haha.. more updates for nxt entry..

2006-05-04T10:10:00.000+08:00

went to see a tie da yest. wah.. pain ar..

saw a video that's funny.. dunno u all understand anot cuz is in cantonese

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rMD7o3MDIB0&eurl

Update

2006-05-03T09:51:00.000+08:00

ya, i sprained my ankle yest nite. :( 1st time leh.. now really become 铁拐李 le.. limping to work. still need to walk stairs.. hai~

Shoutouts:

Eroy:
today last paper le hor? haha. gd luck.. can go out more often le.. =]

Long weekend.

2006-05-02T16:03:00.000+08:00

yesh, e long weekend was gd. =] went town on sat and met up with 3 diff grps of frens. haha.. busy..

went for braces appt.

went to meet the T20s. Join them for awhile. enjoy e talking with sophia and mei at taka. =)

at night, went to meet my xingan and my da chang. hahaha.. bth.. these lovely nicks are from them.. haha.. we really laughed our heads off that day. especially me. haha.. starting with their funny actions in sakae. haha.. "这样，这样" haha.. i burst out laughing where we r sitting at counter seats infront of e belt. haha..

headed off to meet les and slack our night in e preview lounge at cine. nice place. =] after that got a terrible headache. real terrible one.. reach home, pop a panadol and slp.

thanks to all my frens that make me laugh like a retard. haha.

next mth is a busy mth for me.. alot of events cramped next mth. will b v broke! haha.. no choice.. for all my loved ones, it's worth it.

this entry is for xingan cuz she wans to read. haha.. dunno da chang will read anot? haha.. not forgetting another one who haven get his middle name. haha..

enjoying my life =]

the marathon

2006-04-16T16:37:00.000+08:00

yest, i had a marathon.. starting point was thai embassy at orchard, ending pt was bugis, liang seah st.. haha.. walk from 3pm in e afternoon, roamed abt in orchard and walk to bugis.. wow.. that's alot of execrise for my legs man.. long time nv walk so long le..

these few days raining and raining.. thinking of going out oso abit sian.. hai~ yest nite din really slp well so now abit headache liao.. thinking of e future now.. kinda lost actually. dunno whether my thinking fits still in this era.. think pretty hard lah.. need to do some really serious thinking lo..

oh ya, yest i saw felicia chin again.. it's e 2nd time i see her in a mth. haha.. so qiao.. for both times, i keep bumping into her in e same building.. haha

that's all for e moment.. =) take care..

2006-04-10T17:35:00.000+08:00

finally on mc today le. hai~ yest diahoerroea. watever input there will b output.. damn sian.. and e doc gave me big pills to swallow. i need alot of time to finish swallowing all pills. poor me.. u guys must take care cuz sick is not gd..

i drank half cup of milk whereby i saw e medicine there writing no milk and oily food for at least 3 days. haha.. ya.. i was shock.. heng nothing happen..

nothing much to write.. hopefully i will recover soon.. =)

2006-04-06T09:47:00.000+08:00

生病了！

2006-04-04T10:27:00.000+08:00

Took a test. haha.. quite true for me..

You fancy a mental challenge! You go for the brainy type!

Let's put it this way; you would never date the Scarecrow from the Wizard of Oz. A bloke without a brain is not the man for you! Your Mr. Right is well-read, extremely knowledgeable, and can beat anyone at Trivial Pursuit. He can hold his own in any intellectual conversation, and he has an insatiable desire to learn. You prefer a strong mind rather than strong muscles and have no patience for someone who considers telly mentally stimulating. Whether it's because he can take apart a computer and rebuild it at the speed of light or the way he can recite the price of any stock on the market, his brainpower impresses you. You love to learn, and there's no better knowledge than the sort you get from someone you love!

http://uk.tickle.com/test/whosyourtypef/select.html

2006-04-02T01:03:00.000+08:00

recently like to hear sad songs.. haha.. find all sad songs very nice..

歌曲：一年前歌手：胡彦斌

你还记得一年前
我们初次约会的那天
你靠在我左手的肩
问为什么月亮这么圆
我说是庆祝我和你见面
你说我的嘴怎么这么甜
可是现在的你
不再像从前
是什么让我们疏远
我发现你和我的距离开始越来越远
感觉不到
你还在身边
我只能活在期盼
回到过去的世界
坚持到最后一夜
曾经的一点一点
支离破碎的画面
是否和我一样想念
想念那每一个细节

2006-03-14T14:59:00.000+08:00

currently in office.. very scare cannot finish work. but mind is tired.. so taking a break now. feeling better le.. thanks ppl for all ur concern. ppl like yw, gr, rg, les, sher.. thanks guys.. all ur msgs really made me feel alot better. thanks..

last week, my fren say something that made me v happy.. haha.. din have a chance to blog out.. my nick that day was "define happiness". and this is wat my fren msn me suddenly..

Diamonds. pearls. sapphires. says:
happiness is when i get to know u, my dear...

Diamonds. pearls. sapphires. says:
really mah.. with u ard.. brighten my day

Diamonds. pearls. sapphires. says:
anyway this is my first thought when i saw ur nick

i was so touched and happy.. noting can describe e feeling then.. i told my sec sch bestie and this is wat she say:

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
but anyway, seriously, nt tat i wanna make u happy oso la

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
the first time i noe u u a bit quiet quiet

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
in sec

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
then aft some time

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
i tink ur laughing is realli contagious

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
somehow i realli like u when u laugh

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
u laugh i wil oso laugh

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
so wat ur fren say is true

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
oh~i miss sec days

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
hey, note tat u gt tis strong pt of makin ppl laugh

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
so remb to laugh more

cHeRri3 @ i wan tat whisky n vodka choc & bnj ice cream @ >.<* says:
nt everyone gt the capability of doin tat

haha.. feel very happy.. i'm glad i'm surrounded by alot of ppl who cares alot for me.. really a very big thanks.. especially to my most lovable, kai xin guo, Mr. Lessy.. haha.. he nv fails to cheer me up whenever i'm sad..

listening to: 想你是临睡的习惯

我恨我爱你; 左右为难; 我要快乐; 我真的受伤了

2006-03-12T10:34:00.000+08:00

no idea y a couple of hours of sadness can overwrite one week of happiness. this week is a much more better week.

yest, i finally went to swim. after that went to watch FD3 with sophia and meimei. it's really a very gross show man.. shld not go into e details. after that town to meet yun and ps. les joined soon.. was in a shopping mood and i bought a black tee.

at night, i teared to slp. i think it's been a long long long time that i had ever cried so serious. normally is just small amt of tears. haha.. yest night, tears was flowing down my cheeks. as i shared a common room with my sis, i cant cry out loud. it's so xin ku man.. ended up i went to toilet to cry. alot of htings flashing thru my mind. ard 4+, 5 i had tummyache. a real bad one. it took me awhile to get to slp. by right i shld b very tired, but here i am typing this entry.

really hope things are fine.. pray hard..

take care folks! btw, mr. glen is back to singapore yest. me, sophia and meimei were still thinking when will he b back. haha.. hope to meet up soon..

2006-03-04T17:05:00.000+08:00

to conclude, it's a very TERRIBLE week for me.

2006-02-28T17:10:00.000+08:00

today i'm on leave. cuz not feeling well. these few days already coughin den yest feel weak and no strength. dunno y these few days i keep having slping problems. since sat, i have been tossing and turning ard, trying very hard to get to slp. when i finally get to slp, i will start to dream and wake up by 5am! it's a routine man. sounds abit eerie hor? haha.. ya.. dunno y man.. my fren ask me is there something bothering me? erm.. seriously, mayb abit bah.. but oso dunno wat exactly it is. think too much.. haha.. my forte. haha..

hrm.. last week, i get to know of some things. have alot of feelings stirring up.. suddenly really feel very negative in relationships. one moment, e other party can promise u e stars in e sky and e next moment, they can just turn back their words. really very sad lo.. one moment they can be how loving and envy by others, e other moment they are not tgt. how can e other party take it? it's not any1's fault, i understand, cannot blame any1 either. my confidence has been affected. can say quite affected lah. haha.. hopefully i can find back e trust in love soon. haha.. mayb must read e annie's (伊能静) book. i saw it in kang xi lai le. haha..

ending le.. take care every1. bye.

2006-02-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

today is a sunday! yups. a day for me to rest. so tired. this week, most of my time is occupied by my work. rushing things now.. hai~ din go out at all this week! feel so sian.. my mind want to go out but my body say no. haha..

these few days, some things happen and make me feel that i'm a very 小心眼的人. haha.. i take some things very seriously and i'm very particular abt that. i oso wish i'm not like that cuz i will get pissed off easily.

hopefully a brand new week will be good for me. take care

rg:
take care k? smile more :)

[update]

found this in friendster. sophia send me de. i find it damn true. haha..

Guys, realize that the girl holding onto u is
PERFECT in their own special way.

The way she laughs..
The way she sleeps..
The way she loves you..
The way she tries to please you...

Always remember that.

She can always walk away and up,
getting someone else who can love her
more.

For all you know,
there is someone out there wooing her
already,
but she is rejecting,
a maybe perfect love for her..

There might also be someone out there..
who is willing to love her more than you
are loving
her now,
fufill her every need and love her as
much as she
loves you.

Understand that.

Girls have a huge guilty concience.
...imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today...
and then you cheat on her by hugging
and kissing
another gal.
and then you run back to her...
and u do the same....
but you see love in her eyes...
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because you are
good looking,
have money,
buy her things,
make her parents happy,
or that you have a car.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say, everything
you do.

Guys.
Cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of that special
girl you have.
For everything she has done for you, the least
you
can do is to give her unconditional love as she
has given to you.

2006-02-18T13:07:00.000+08:00

long time nv update le. lazy.. hehe

work is rather busy. rushing changes blah blah.. feeling very emotional this few days. find myself very slow in thinking. there was a period of time where i think, am i suitable in IT line? but if dun do IT i oso dunno so wat le.

last sat, went out with e T20s. went k with them.. very happy. hehe.. i always enjoy singing k with them.. so nice.. haha.. later on, gr joined us for a movie - a season for love. another touching korean show. it's quite sad lah.. but i din cry.. haha.. dunno i heartless or wat leh. but my conclusion is movie i wont cry cuz it's 2 hrs only. mayb if it's a drama series den i will. haha.. after that, went drinking with them. in e end, only left me, sophia, mei mei and eroy. i prefer small gropus chilling actually. i enjoy e chilling session with e gentle wind blowing, e quietness and of cuz e additional fireworks. it's so beautiful.

received an sms from glen yest. he say he reach thailand le. haha.. after like 2 weeks den he reach there. omg.. if it's me, i sure cant tahan one. haha.. oh ya.. yest i managed to tok to e very long nv see MIA person of e T20s. yes, it's ah seow. haha.. he told me he's in combat medic now. hope to meet up with him soon.

i dunno whether i got fat anot leh. i'm so scare of getting fat. haha.. i try to slim down le leh. i dun eat supper and my intake has decreased. but dunno y my stomach is still so big my arms are so fat. however, my watch very loose le wor. haha.. weird hor. wanna go swim but then my fren not free. hope to go next week man.. if not really fat until cannot make it.

dunno today going out anot. ren say wanna meet but he nv tell me e time yet. shld wait for his msg. i miss them so much.. it's been so long since we meet. almost a month le.

oh ya, i wanna thank lester. cuz he made me laugh like a retard in e office that day when i'm feeling low. haha.. thanks les. =)

alot of frens ard me going to enrol uni this year. i got 6 frens enrolling. but then up til yest, only 1 enrolled already. haha. feel abit gan jiong for them. cuz e deadline is on mon. hope they can enrol in time. seriously, i feel abit pressurized cuz all of them are pursing studies. it's like only left me. haha..

take care, every1

2006-01-29T18:40:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. today is chu 1 le. hrm.. i'm only back at home ard 6.15 and not 5. haha.. it's becuz my elder sis's delay lo.. she came back late den we ended up going out late. :( den din manage to take a cab thus have to endure e dreadful 1hr bus ride to serangoon. slept on the bus and now my neck very pain. haha..

hrm.. rest of today will b spent at home.. so boring.. haha.. feel like going out but then every1 like quite busy. haha.. looking forward to tml's gathering..

today is the most enjoyable NY.. haha.. mayb is becuz one of my biao jie is there. i haven seen her like abt 5 years.. very long hor. haha.. bonding not v gd mah.. heard alot of gossips and have alot of gan chu.. know some insider news that happen 10yrs ago.. feel very xin teng for my mum and dad.. hai~ some words are really very hurtful. well, i believe retributions do exists! they have to pay a price for the things they say..

these are e past.. wat is most impt is e future. =)

2006-01-28T18:49:00.000+08:00

it's new year eve today.. hrm.. i'm busy doing my last min spring cleaning as the past few weeks i'm quite busy. it's so tiring.. hrm. seriously i dun like new year one. haha.. mayb is becoz my relative bonding is not very strong. my chu 1 will be going to one place only.. i will be back by 5pm.. haha.. every year is e same.. sounds boring hor. haha.. ya, indeed..

recently i find myself forgetting things very easily. it's abit scary lo.. dunno izzit old le.. haha..

my hse is very red cuz my dad keeps pasting those red red things onto e walls. haha.. was quite amazed by one of e decor. cuz got light one. haha.. will post e pics soon.. my cupboard is very neat now.. happy.. but i think it's a matter of time only lah.. haha..

feeling very lonely..

have fun ppl =)

2006-01-12T18:42:00.000+08:00

the beautiful khakis accompanying me thru the christmas and new year's night. beautiful shots are captured and memories too. love u guys =)

2006-01-11T10:11:00.000+08:00

i wrote an entry just now but accidentally closed it.. argh!!!

dun feel like re-writing le..

1) had badminton yest.
2) went to get new year goodies yest.
3) raining dis few days.
4) feel tired.. tired of some things.
5) lots of things on mind. serious thinking

i'm missing alot of ppl.. hope to meet u guys soon.

short and sweet. =) take care..

2006-01-02T15:19:00.000+08:00

posting an entry in a brand new year.

2005 is a year where my life is at a major turning point. from a student life to a working life. from an active person to a work then home person. haha.. sounds boring rite? i guess working life is pretty much e same. hopefully i wont get older that fast. haha..

2005 has been a good year for me overall. i have made a group of very very close frens. e khakis! thanks for everything u guys have done. thanks for all the late night talks, advises, beer etc.. special thanks to the 2 bitches out there..

Sher:
i hope 2006 will b a good year for u. mayb happiness b ard u for e whole year.. =)

Les:
i noe army is tough, bear with it, it will soon be over. i look forward to meeting u guys every sat so that i can laugh like a mad woman to relieve stress. haha.. thanks for being there for me. i really appreciate it.. =) i do miss u during weekdays. i'm not that bo xin hor. haha. :P

shoutouts:

ruoyun:
hope u enjoyed ur bday celebration. of cuz ur little surprise which turns out not being so surprise. haha.. u noe wat i meant. u din noe 3 of us were so gan chiong while hiding there as we din noe when u are coming out. haha..

ps:
sweets, mayb ut whole year b filled with happiness. dun think too much k? smile more, u look v pretty when u smile. =)

ren:
the forever missing ppl. and will only pops out at special occassions. haha.. i miss u.. haha.. u better come and meet us soon k? hope ur life in sispec is good. take care. =]

to my t20s:

the chalet at aranda last year was e best! haha.. whenever i look at those pictures, happy memories will flash back. especially those games and most of all the MEATBALLS and ALCOHOL. haha.. all of us are heading separately, some in army, some in work force, some in uni life. it's pretty hard for us to gather again just like before. u guys out there pls take care. =) i certainly hope we will have another happening chalet just like before. looking forward for that. haha..

2005-12-09T09:17:00.000+08:00

haha.. something to announce.. i'm on braces now!!! haha.. going to be ugly for abt 15mths. :P it's pretty exciting while waiting to put on e braces.. it's rather pain as the braces scratch the flesh in my mouth and e pain is those ulcer feeling. lips are pretty dry. other than that, food get stuck easily, thus need to brush after every meal. abit troublesome lo. feel rather cute and young in braces. haha.. :p

work is pretty busy now. haven been meeting my loved ones recently. let's meet up soon k? i promise to let u all see my "new" look. haha.. ok.. shall end here le. will upload my "new" look soon.. haha.. take care guys.. :)

2005-11-18T10:02:00.000+08:00

i'm bored... this few days i have nothing to do at work. haha.. it's becuz my in-charge is not in office for 3 days.. hai~ it's so boring to have nothing to do. but this can be considered a ""honeymoon" period for me, cuz there a greater project for me to do later and it's quite rush.. wish me luck..

i think working life can really make one looks old. haha.. i think i'm getting older and older in terms of looks.. argh.. it's so scary.. i guess gals are rather scare of getting older.

working life is boring too.. everyday is work den head home, work den head home.. it's like a dead routine.. dis few days, went to surf some overseas uni websites. realise it's time to think of my future, where to purse my studies..

there's alot to consider. e cost, e fear of studying aboard, e fear of an unfamiliar place and alot more. however, it will not be that fast before i really go study. i wanna gain some experiences 1st, learn how to be more independent, save up money. so i conclude the earliest will be like in 2 years time? so u guys still got at least 2 years to see me ard. haha.. :P

btw, e sch fees are very ex now.. it's increasing like dunno wat.. heard it's abt 10+K per sem. so it's ard 25K for a year in 2 years time. excluding the expenses.. hai~ if add expenses ar, it will b ard 40K.. wow wow... it's a large sum of money man.. sian..

muz work hard and save money liao lah.. any1 interested in overseas studying muz tell me hor.. :)

take care..

06 Nov ' 05

2005-11-06T19:57:00.000+08:00

today is my bday. haha.. 1 year older now. stepping into the 20s. it sounds abit scary.. having the feeling of getting older and older.. was telling sophia and mei i have to doll up younger now. haha..

dis year was the best bday i had. everything went smoothly yest.. in the afternoon, i met my secondary frens and celebrated with them. one of my fren's bday is on e 4th, thus it's a practice that we celebrate tgt every year. walk ard in orchard, sat down for a cup of drink. it's the 1st time all of us so "on" for photos taking. haha.. we snap alot alot of pics. i believe it's e 1st time and all of us enjoyed it. haha.. more to come, i hope.. my fren's bf bought a cake for her and i was quite paiseh to share it with her lah, cuz it's not for me de mah. haha.. :p after that went to meet my favourite bitches!

walk ard with them and we sat down at a corner in taka. while we sat and tok, my dearest sher and sheryl came up with a small cake. haha.. i was quite touched. haha.. after finishing the cake, we walked aimlessly in orchard before we finally settled down at Indochine, that was when the fun started.. haha.. we played games and it was so fun.. thanks guys.. :) i was dragged up the stage while they sang e bday song for me. it's such a unique cum paiseh experience.. haha.. the music was perfect, the people is perfect, the mood is perfect and of cuz we ended up having a perfect fun. sorry to make u guys spend so much.. thanks alot :)

today, went to meet up with another poly grp.. my class de gers.. :) walked alot, tok alot, eat alot, snap alot. haha.. i thank them for the present.. it's lovely.. really like it alot. thanks eroy, yiwei, billy, zhenghao, glen, mei, sophia, hua and pat for the present..

dis year's bday is simply great.. thanks all my frenz.. love u all..

2005-10-05T09:12:00.000+08:00

i noe i'm kind of lazy to blog nowadays. haha.. work is ok.. life is pretty gd... this entry is abit bo liao. ignore it. take care folks! :)

2005-09-15T11:58:00.000+08:00

It's been long since my last update. haha.. lazy lah... :) Tues was e start of my work in a company called ECentrex. it's introduced by pat. reason i chose is because it's very near my hse. hehe.. only 5-8 mins bus journey. near hor? hehe.. can save transport $. it's an IT firm developing softphone meaning u can treat ur com as a phone to make calls.

at e moment, e job scope is still ok lah. haven really started. haa.. slacking now lo. i hope it will b gd.. i certainly hope! haha..

i'm missing alot of ppl. haha..

- namely those in army de lah
- my singtel collegues lah
- my dearest bitches lah
- my secondary sch fren lah
- not forgetting e T20s =)

very long nv meet them le lo. haha.. hope to meet up soon. update soon. :)

Sept 08

2005-09-08T02:14:00.000+08:00

it's 2.15am. feeling lonely now. haha.. the few nite owls are slping early tonight. they are going in ns tml. haha.. lester, rg, den. it feel kinda sad cuz they are e ones accompanying me thru many many late nights. craps, suppers, jokes, counsellings and more..

hope we do contact, keep in touch, take care guys! :)

寂寞的心

2005-08-27T22:47:00.000+08:00

不知为什么, 最近的心不是很好. 可能是想太多了吧.

朋友这个问题一直都在我的脑海里.以前的我, 很想做一个大家多向望的好朋友,一个可以容易交到朋友的人. 但是, 这并不简单. 当你越想做到的事, 他就越难做. 有时后, 真的会感到力不从心. 那时, 就会想自己的想法是不是错了, 是不是太刻意了.

也许, 我天生就是安静, 害羞, 没自信. 这个我想做到的事变的好难好难, 离我很远.

我的心好难受...

我..
好想把自己封闭起来.
好想让朋友都离开我.
好想这样把自己锁在自己的空间里.

我总觉得我和朋友之间有一道墙, 很厚的一道墙.
这道墙是我建的!

好矛盾啊!!!
想太多了吧. =)

人生中有好多事真的要看的很轻. 我相信明明中自有按排! =]

知己难寻..

2005-08-24T19:50:00.000+08:00

知己难寻..

是我一个朋友提仪我写的. 对我而言, 我身旁的知己还真是没几个.

知己的定意是什么?
- 了解你的人?
- 当你失落的时后, 在你生旁陪着你?

hrm.. i oso dunno how to continue le. haha.. continue later. =)

Part 2

ok, i will write in english cuz of writing in chinese needs more time. haha..

For Mei,
Thanks for ur sms, silly. =) it makes me smile. haha.. i'm really ok... it's just some inner feelings of mine..

i do find it hard to find a bossom fren that understands me. mayb i dun like ppl to know much of e real me. maybe it's partially my part because i built a wall between me and my frenz. i myself oso find it hard to understand myself.

whenever i heard my frens saying about their buddies, i do envy them. haha.. i really dunno how to continue le lah.. =)

2005-08-21T14:41:00.000+08:00

it's been long since i blog.

my work issue is pretty much settled. my last day is tml. finally e nightmare has ended and i'm awaiting a new gd future. haha..

one thing i cant bear is my collegues. they are very nice and we get along very well. i wonder if i will cry tml. haha.. better not, else it will b very ugly. haha..

once mon is over, i will have more time to enjoy myself. probably i will give myself a few weeks break before i continue on searching for a new one. pray hard that it's a gd one dis time. =)

one more thing, i no need to pay any money as they agreed to sack me. haha

dunno wat to blog le. haha. take care.

I Quit!

2005-08-04T20:34:00.000+08:00

Today, near to the end of e day, i received an email. an email that made me super duper sad, lose even more of my little confidence. i cried on e bus, no matter how hard i try to control, tears juz kept rolling down. it's as if my soul is taken by some1.

the email is as follows:

-----Original Message-----
From: Sunny Chia
Sent: Thursday, August 04, 2005 6:09 PM
To: Alicia Lee Sook Ling
Cc: Eric Chua Buan Ann; Cally Sim; sanusi
Subject: One Month Probation Feedback
Importance: High

Hi,

As communicated, your performance todate have not been satisfactory and was probably attributed by the steep learning curb expected in this project. You have agreed to work harder and I'll have to load you more from now onwards as users will not be accomodative anymore after the past one month period of learning. Do give your best and hope to work with you till the end of your contract or longer, thanks.

Do come to me if you need further clarifications or help.

Cc. Just to inform you that Alicia will be giving another shot on the job and will review again after another month to see how she performs.

Rgds

after my sis's analysis, i feel much better. no longer that sad.

here's e analysis:
my TL is finding a scapegoat that's obviously me. the story goes like that
the guy before me, Kenny, made a big mess to the system. he cause the datas to go haywire and all. when he left and i take over, i discovered the problems and i asked my TL, only then he discovered that, for the past 2 mths, Kenny did alot to affect the system's performance. so during my 1 mth, i had a horrible time clearing Kenny's shit. the system is in a big mess now. users are complaining. if my TL were to help me, he will not cc the mail to my boss oso.

it's office politics. i'm just a pawn of his. i'm not cut out for the game. but he really dun seems like that. every1 is saying sunny is very gd de blah blah. is it really this case? i oso dun care le, i will tender my resignation tml. hopefully he will help me negotiate so that i no need to pay e compensation.

above are just assumptions... wat are ur views?

Feeling unappreciated....

2005-08-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

Hi all,

i'm feeling not gd.... really really not gd... it's all abt work...

in short, what i'm doing is not appreciated by some1. i do feel sad, demoralised.. i'm that kind of person. easily affected by ppl's comment.

i know i'm not up to ur standard.
i know i'm slow in learning.

it's my 1st job and i get that kind of comment. i lost the confidence...

i lose!

Worn Out....

2005-08-02T00:03:00.000+08:00

i'm super duper tired...
most of e days last week were OT days..

today, it's WORST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i work from 8.30 to 10.30 non-stop! even lunch oso.. i'm so tired..

do i have a choice? i dun think so.. let's hope tml will b gd. anyway, my TL is not that bad lah.. he's quite gd actually.

got to noe that my bitches are quite sick, take care of urselves k? :)

take care all my frenz!!!!

Thanks...

2005-07-24T13:18:00.000+08:00

my previous entry seems very sad, depressed blah blah rite? ya, at that pt, this are e feelings.

I would like to thank all my frenz, my loved ones for their care and concern. you all know who you are. Thanks alot.. i guess i'll still grumble for another 6 months, so you all bear with it hor. haha..

i really wanted to quit. but somehow the money is e factor. i cant bear my 3K. after some talks and blah blah from my frens, somehow i had e courage to continue on. i hope e courage and encouragement will last me thoughout these 6 months. i really hope that.. really really a big big thanks to all of you. i really feel loved by e things you all have done, no matter it's juz a talk or wat. i really appreciate it. :)

Up next

Again it's the grumbling time. haha...

for the past 1 week, the total no of OT hours is 10. alot hor. i think it's yet to come lo.. damn sian lo, almost everyday OT.

so fri i went off at 5.45 whereby e knockoff time shld b 5.30 lah.. so i'm gd rite? i still stay for 15 min. then yest, my collegue told me wat my team leader said after i left. i had things to do lah, but he nv say muz complete by fri.

"yesterday , sunny say you told him will try your best , then when he come out from meeting room, you all gone already , he feel so funny ..............."

i ask my collegue "is sunny angry then?"

"wat you say leh?"

i know it's pretty bad for me to go off without finishing my stuffs. but if muz finish den go ar, i guess i have to stay til 8 lo.. i think i'm right, cuz 5.30 is e knockoff time mah, if i go on e dot oso nothing wrong.

but i do feel uneasy becuz i dun like my TL's impression of me to b bad. i'm kinda of nervous for tml cuz i dunno how to face my TL. sounds stupid rite. hai~ hope for e best bah... i end here le.. bye and take care~~~~

Feelings

2005-07-15T13:31:00.000+08:00

feeling depressed.
feeling stressed.
feeling worried.
feeling sian.
feeling upside down.
feeling tired.
feeling helpless.
feeling cheated.
feeling scared.
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the list goes on. diff types of feeling for this sucks job! a very big heap of shit to clear. wat can i do, how can i help? i have no ideas.

user's request, none were completed. i'm scare..

Dear frenz, pls pray for me. =(

2005-07-04T22:14:00.000+08:00

finally i'm working. it's only e 2nd day and i feel that e company dun seems so gd. hopefully it will change. been busy, so busy and lazy to update.

Last Mon
went out wif sher, yun, ren, lessy and others.. alot of photos taken, but i look ugly. sob sob.. it's pretty fun that day as we crap, tok blah blah.. i feel comfortable.

Last Tue
i cant rem wat i did.

Last Wed
Went for a checkup and they took a tube of my blood which didnt meant to be taken. poor me. after that at nite, went phuture! it's my 1st time and it's a nice experience. :) thanks for bringing me there, u all noe who u r :)

Last Thur
Sleep until 3+ and off i went to town to meet up wif my pri sch fren for a bday celebration. it's fun. we ate at sushi tei, e food is quite nice. can try nxt time

Last Fri
My 1st day of work. sian, reading source code.. later at nite, went for supper or shld i say i sneak out for supper for e 1st time. haha.. nice experience, makes me feel like learning driving. lol

Kids

2005-06-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

小花猫上学校.
老师讲课他睡觉.
左耳进, 右耳出
dunno how to continue le..

this is taught by my 2 years old niece. haha.. they are so young and already learning so chiam de poems le. oh my god man.. i dunno how to continue cuz i cant figure out wat my niece is saying. haha.. any1 have an idea?

my cousin's baby ger and my niece, both same age is not singing twinkle twinkle little star already. in fact they are singing,

我爱你, 爱着你, 就象老鼠爱大米.

amazing rite? haha.. kids today are so bright..

i'm falling sick, e whole family except my dad is falling sick.. not gd.. take care..

i'm so bored...

2005-06-21T02:00:00.000+08:00

changed my template yest nite!

pretty bored these few days. practically nothing to do at home man, lazy to go out also. hai~ contradicting rite. online oso nobody to tok to, tv oso nothing to see. y is life for me so boring? i wanna enjoy b4 going to work.

juz saw my sec sch fren's blog. she went clubbing. WOW.. she is very guai type de. me consider bad de oso nv went b4 leh. haha.. got time muz go see see look look liao. lol..

there is this scary movie screening now. abit digusting. haha.. but really nothing to watch le. shall slp early bah.. today did ironing of alot of clothes. haha.. so guai. :P

tml's plan:

1) Pack cupboard

tml will b a better day!!! :)

2005-06-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

i got a job le.. haha.. although it's a 6mths contract job. It's e singtel one la. signed e contract on sat. starting work on 1st july. pretty scare cuz it's a big company and there will be of cuz office politics. i'm juz an innocent ger, hope i dun get involved in their things. i also hope it will be an easy job. haha.. everyday go work, knock off accurately. that's wat i hope lah.. hopefully this 6mths will pass easily lo. i keep my fingers crossed. :x

try to gain more exeperience bah. i still wanna get a perm job! but it's so hard now. every1 is offering contract. sian rite? hai~ thinking that 6mths later i have to go for interviews again, i'm scare.. but it's 6 mths later lah.

oh, e workplace is at bukit timah. wonder if it will jam anot hor? i hope not leh, cuz i wanna get home as early as possible.

weekdays are so bored at home.. now that my best fren is working tml, i am even more bored. so sad.. most of my frenz either work or serving e nation, e list online is getting so few ppl. sad..
:(

anyway, i'm soooo fat.. my tummy is like bloated liao lo and dis few days, i juz wish to eat at any moment man.. surely fat even more.. i dun wan!!! muz try to control le.. hai~

food list i wish to munch now!!!
1) Salad
2) Lemon biscuit
3) Dumplings
4) Bread and butter padding

have this tot of cooking dessert, salads. haha.. depends on my mood bah..
shld blog later bah.. bye and take care!!!

This is bread and butter pudding, looks gd leh. haha

Tired....

2005-06-16T01:47:00.000+08:00

Quite long nv blog le. i'm lazy, tired, blah blah.. same routine for me lo still going through interviews. yest, spent e whole day out.

Interview at NCS at 10am, but ended up they told me it's e wrong timing. went back home for abt an hr with a KFC O.R Fillet Burger. It really sucks lo, dun buy especially at Westmall de. the fillet is so salty and can u believe it, pepsi with no gas. yucks..

soon after, went to singtel at bt timah for interview. interview was like 5min only but e rest of e time was spent there trying some programming lo. honestly speaking, i gave back all e codes to teachers le leh. haha.. did 1/2 of wat they want and off i go back to NCS at Yio Chu Kang. Long journey, again there is a .Net test. It's sooooo tough man. out of 20 Questions, i think i only know how to do 1. e rest, never seen b4. haha.. den quickly went home as i was worn out, tired, exhausted...

nowadays, whenever i think of jobs, e moody feeling comes... i feel so weak, really dun wish to find lo.. actually, i'm still thinking of e middle road de job leh. but e 'nice' ger say fri will give me reply but up to today oso dun have leh. feel like email-ing her but dunno how to say leh. like very desperate like that hor? if wanna email hor, how to put into words to make me look like not so desperate? give me some lines frenz!!!

these few days, i have been slping early which is quite gd lah. ha ha... yest nite, there was a moth flying ard my bed for like 20mins. it juz fly and fly den disappear.

oh ya, got to mention something. yest my mum received a call and that person put on a lousy act to ask some stupid questions whereby his main motive is to tell my mum, he and his wife went to Shanghai 1 week ago. WTF rite. haha.. that's my uncle. super hao-lian lo. my uncle sort of look down on his bro which is my dad. den my mum continued with her Perth story. haha.. anyway, e air tickets for Perth is more ex and Perth is an ang-moh country. haha.. so i still think my parents won e "competition" haha...

Scary interviews!!!

2005-06-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

these few days are busy with interviews.

Tue

1st
- went tahjong pagar
- as expected, indians, indians and more indians
- keep on shooting me with questions
- questions they ask
- wat is DFD used for?
- how does a webpg works?
- wat is pg render and pg load?

all my ans are bullshits. haha.. they are stunned by some of my ans. :P those theory questions i long forget liao lo. my ans so lousy, they still ask me to go back on sat for a ASP.Net test, but i give it a miss. haha.. and that person wanted to say event but in e end i ask him 3 times den i know lo. he pronounce "E1" haha.. u all can try saying "E1" in a faster pace. haha

2nd

- IRAS
- not e type of work i wanted so i turn down lo

Conclusion: quite a wasted trip lah.. but it's ok..

Wed

1st

- Aljunied
- e person quite fierce and e place is wulu. e lift is machiam those cargo lift. very eerie. haha
- he and that lady asked me alot of questions.
- he say giving me a confirmation call tml.

2nd

- middle road
- e lady is nice, soft-spoken
- we actually went Mr Bean for e interview
- she treats me to a drink. haha..
- i feel e company not bad lo. wana get in leh but dunno can anot?
- she oso giving me a confirmation call tml. super nervous. acutally i'm scare that my hopes are high and i will fall badly.

Conclusion: it's not that bad lo..

i dun like interviews.. cuz it's very tiring and scary. i juz wish some1 will employ me soon. hai~ my fren juz got a job. very gd rite? haha.. ok. end here le.. bye

i'm sick

2005-06-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

the conclusion for previous entry is most of my frenz are racist. haha.

i'm sick!!! dun dare to tell mum cuz she will nag saying that i slp late that's y e fire cause e sickness. haha..

juz saw a movie screened on channel 5, boys and girls. the show is not bad lah. i seldom see ang moh show k? haha..

nothing much to blog. it's gonna rain, haha.. this few days, juz feel like staying at home. strengthless. haha.. end here le

take care boys and girls!!!

2005-06-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

*this entry is highly racial, pls b prepared when u read it. haha

it's been so long since i blog. this period is spent for finding jobs, sending resumes.. yest i was so angry. i didnt want to condemn indians but they really irritated me and i'm hoping mad at suntec yest alone.

it was a wasted trip. indians really like to push blame to others claiming that they are not in e wrong. acting blur is their best way to shift e blame. really F* lo.. i was waiting for their confirmation call for 1hr 15min, sitting alone at suntec like an idiot! when i call them back, she insisted that she had been contacting me whereby i dun have any missed calls lo. stupid rite?

i juz hope that i wont b working with indians again. they really sucks..

美容大王

2005-05-18T01:25:00.000+08:00

昨天晚上, 读了大S所写的书- 美容大王. 内容是挺不错的, 可以看的出她真的是爱美到...... 疯狂的尝试所有听来的, 看来的. 不过, 她的身材, 头发是真的有说服力, 让我不经住看了. 以下是一段.

◎守则１：保持距离以策安全
我平常绝对不让头发接触到它不该接触到的东西。譬如，我坐椅子的时候会把头发撩放到胸前来，才去靠椅背，绝不可能让它夹在背部和椅背中间，遭受无情的摩擦压迫！

◎守则２：谁都不能压到它
坐车的时候，我也一定把头发放在安全带的前面，绝对不让安全带压着它，也不能让头发被安全带摩擦到！

◎守则３：不让它碰到不该碰的
在家里看电视的时候，我也会把头发放到前面，不可能让头发摩擦到沙发！

◎守则４：睡觉要把头发撩起来
如果你的头发长到一个程度，睡觉的时候你一定要把头发撩起来睡，绝对不可以将头发压在身体与枕头中间。如果让头发与枕头直接接触，只要试过两天你醒来就会发现头发整个都打结了，发质变得很干，这是让头发与枕头接触摩擦的后果！

◎守则５：连手都不能碰到
男友要搭我的肩膀，我也要把头发撩起来，才让他的手搭上肩。这些听起来虽然都很变态，而且我的朋友也觉得我的行为变态，可是我就是用这样变态的手段来保护我的头发！

◎守则６：尽量不绑马尾
我在家的时候也不太绑马尾，因为绑马尾会让前额的头发掉得厉害，戴发箍也是可能让你前额的头发掉得厉害的另一个祸首！

◎守则７：自然垂下摆两边
我在家一定将头发放下来，平均地分成两边，将它们垂放在胸前。只有这样平均垂放，才不让头发偏重任何一边，只要一边的头发较重，那里的头发就可能容易掉！

挺跨张的吧! 哈哈..

如果有性趣的, 可跟我拿link!

Outing

2005-05-13T03:14:00.000+08:00

went to town wif ruoyun and weiren.. we were all late, haha.. for an hr.. haha.. walked to cine to catch House of Wax. too bad dun have.. so walked all e way down to PS. that movie is really so digusting lo. my eyes was covered with my shawl for most of e show. haha.. i'm a weakling.

if i went to watch with dear, i believe i will squeeze his hands until dunno wat lo. haha.. the movie is simply GROSS.. the characters inside the movie is so poor thing lo..

conclusion for e show: paris hilton is hot, sexy with her red lingerie. woOoooooooo

had a nice chatting session with them. everything seems to be like e past, so nice.. e only missing part is sherlyn not there. nvm, i believed there will be a chance next time. :)

these few days, had e feeling that i wont get a job. how how? i'm desperate or jobs now... hai~ i went bugis to pray 2 days for this week liao lo..

parents are going Aust on sat with my niece, my sis and bro-in-law.. so gd.. haha..

i can sneak out at night. anyone?

mushy entry for all my loved ones

2005-05-06T02:04:00.000+08:00

this entry will be for all my poly mates, my buddies..

all in no orders..

starting from the gers

1) Lin Xuemei, Sharon -
when i reach the class, the 1st ger i noticed is her. my 1st tot is "my class got ah lian leh!" haha.. dun blame me k? haha.. she is the closest to me among all the gers. we go sch tgt, go home tgt. it's fun as we will share secrets, give nicknames to ppl etc.. out of 10 times, i'm always late for ard 8 times. pity mei, got to wait for me. and 1 more thing, she detests ppl to call her sharon. haha

sorry.. aft me and wei tgt le, i admit i nelegected her cuz i'm always meeting yw. sorry..

wat i wan to say: thanks for being there for me, waiting bus with me, eating waffles tgt and of cuz waiting for me. love u loads :) all the best to u..

2) Goh Wanhua -
my 1st impression of her is that she and xuemei machiam know each other very long liao lo.. haha.. they seems to have endless things to say. haha.. she is a pretty, natural ger. her laughter is oso attracting.. at the end part of the poly life, i become closer with her. spending alot of nites in ur hse, eating things frm ur grandma's hse. nice nice..

the only ger which me and her dun have chirstian names. lalala, some teachers wont call us cuz it's not so easy to call. ahahaha....

wat i wan to say: thanks for introducing me good foods. haha

3) Sophia Wee Ming E -
she is e 1st ger that i tok to in my class. i rem i ask her for a pen. haha.. after that i went to sit wif her. she is a quiet ger i think, mayb becoz we are not that close bah. she loves the sun alot alot, always jio-ing ppl to go tan. she is also very independent! i'm impresses as she manages her time very well, btw work and studies. ya, she also detests ppl calling her Ming E. haha

wat i wan to say: all the best to u, tanning partner. haha

4) Ng Patricia -
the 1st time i see her, i tot she was tgt with yulong cuz they came into class tgt, sit tgt. but it's not lah. she is someone who have appearance. although her dressing is simple but i find it nice. wasnt really close to her but i think she is a gd fren.

wat i wan to say: all the best, stay pretty always..

alrite now to the guys, in no orders

1) Law Kayhui, Eroy, Lao Ah -
this guy is the oldest in our grp but he doesnt act like his age. e 1st contact wif him is when we saw him at e square where he is alone listening to his songs. i tot he is those quiet quiet, shy shy guy. i forgot who appoarch him to teach us FS, after that he became our tutor for FS. everytime before exam, we will bug him to teach us. he is a pro man, results are damn gd! he will go out often wif us gers even if he is e only guy.

getting closer to him in e later part of poly. he organised activities for the class like chalets, outings. he is our pirated source, most of the songs i wan he will have it. haha.. his cooking skills are oso good, fried man tou is his famous dish. haha

wat i wan to say: thanks for entertaining me when i'm bored. and we will continue to ask u for songs. haha.. he is also my entertainment gossiper. lol

2) Lai Rui Guo, rG -
i heard of his name before i met him. haha.. he is a very popular guy, alot of ppl knows him. we were in the same grp for SGP. it's really fun at that time, u guys really make me laugh during SGP although e teacher is abit ... haha..

1st impression of him, very very very shy and quiet guy. but i was wrong! haha.. in msn he is full of craps, i always ask him to entertain me most of e time when i'm online. we get to know each other better in msn. he is also a very secretive person, cuz he always say "secret" when u ask him things. haha

wat i wan to say: thanks for keeping me company in many sleepless nights and pls continue on doing it. ahaha

3) Chong Chung Min, Glen -
he sits besides me during the 1st day. his hair is oso quite golden on e 1st day. but when mentor ask us to give him our passport size pics, i accidentally saw his. i was like "omg, is this him?" the different is soooo big cuz he was so studious unlike him. haha.. too bad i saw e pic. ahaha..

get to know him better during SGP that sem cuz we had 3 hrs break time. that was so sian lo. haha.. he is a crapper in short. he smokes alot and he is very very rich and he is very ang-moh. lol

wat i wan to say: thanks for crapping with me, and if can, quit smoking.

4) Seow Zheng Hao, superhero seow, bukit batok da shuai ge -
he used to skip class wif my dear and glen. they are the 3 skipping class musketters. haha. he always always take cab home.. rich fellow. haha.. rob him or glen! get to know him oso during SGP that sem. it's really fun spending the 3 hr-break wif u, cuz u nv fails to make me laugh. haha..

he is a poor victim of my dear, cuz my dear will b spreading rumours btw gers and him. haha.. he promise to give me mini cooper and a full set of jewelleries from SK. haha..

wat i wan to say: thanks for making me laugh, i'm looking forward to my present. :)

5) Ang Thiam Guan, Billy, Pink small pig, da hong hua -
he is in one of the top 3 most handsome guys in my class judged by we gers.. get to knoe him at e later part of poly. he is another crapper. with him ard, there were be laughters and all. especially when he is pair up wif my dear. haha..

he is someone with wei yan, keeping saying he is tay ping hui and zhang dong jian. haha.. oh yesh, he has alot of comments abt "oreo cookies" lol

wat i wan to say: thanks for making me laugh at ur jokes and teaching me to stop continuing when a joke is not funny. haha.. all the best to u.

6) Dong Guo Rui, Gr -
i dunno if ur surname is correct anot lah. haha.. same as rG, i heard his name before i know him. y i have an impression of him. hrm, cuz he told someone i'm cute. haha.. this is wat i heard lah.. tok to him during chalet and find that he is a nice guy lo, very very very gentleman.. he will peel prawns for us. if he finds that we gers are walking behind at night or wat, he will slow down his pace and walk behind us even if he is alone juz to protect us where e other guys are way ahead. very gentleman rite? mr nice guy... and furthermore he is not my class de.

get to tok to him and know more abt him in msn. actually i find that some of our thinking are quite alike lo.. haha.. and he likes to look at stars.. :)

wat i wan to say: thanks for peeling prawns for us.. all e best in future!!!!

7) Goh Lixing
all i can say, his results are damn damn gd de lo. and dun b deceived by his looks, he is god of gamblers specializing in mahjong!!!

wat i wan to say: all e best for ur army!!!

8) Huang Yiwei
he complain saying how come dun have his, so here is it. e 1st impression is that "wow, my class got an attitude ppl leh" haha.. i oso think he likes to act cool and all having that stupid long hair which is quite gay. haha.. forgive me.. and i really hate guys with long hair lo. but when he plays e game, we gave him a nickname, energizer battery. haha. cuz he really chiong lo. haha.

after a few weeks, in immf class, he will always ask me for songs or become his chinese translator. -.- haha.. so slowly slowly started to admire him lo, forgot wat nickname me and mei gave him le. haha.. occasionally will meet him at clementi when going to sch or home lo.

wat i wan to say: thanks for being there when i have depression and feeling moody and all. thanks.. :) and pls give me all ur $$$$. haha

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alrite, my next batch of frenz... they are my IS frenz, my gems, my pretty babes. i got to know them in sem 1. it's very fun to have them as company. they can do the wildest things that i nv tried before. they taught me alot of things, drinking beer, playing truant, not listening to lesson, going to c zoe tay, my god...etc... haha.. my many 1st times with them..

1) Ng Shimin, Sherlyn -
1st time c her, juz feel like how come this ger so dao one lo... haha. but slowly i know her better liao den i started to admire her. her dressings are unique, style, nice, dunno how to describe liao. my 1st overnight stay is at her place, 1st time drinking beer at her place, sitting at e pool side, singing k.. it's so fun.. really really miss e times wif u, my dearie..

she teaches me alot of things, mayb she dun even know. she affected parts of my life, added excitments in my boring life. as times goes by, we started to lose contact, we only tok occasionally in msn.. although it's like that, i dunno y when i have problems or something silly i did, her image juz pops out in my mind. i juz feel like telling her.

wat i wan to say: although we are not that close and all, i still love u dearie.. :) and of cuz a big thank you for u...

2) Mak Ruoyun -
this sweetie pie of mine is sooo pretty and cute.. she has her charms.. we can tok tok tok.. mayb is becoz our sec sch are close to each other. i know her frenz oso.. it's connected.. u noe wat i mean. haha...

wat i wan to say: sweetie pie, i miss u so much... meet up soon and dun be unhappy k? :)

3) Tan Weiren -
he is a 1st guy who tok to me alot alotin my whole life, cuz i'm a shy ger. haha.. he has got features i wan lo. unfair!! double eyelids, DIMPLES!!! he is a great fren as he will try means to cheer u up when u r down.. :) miss e days spent tgt like celebrating my bday etc...

he always goes gym and now his figure is so whoooooooooooooooo.....

wat i wan to say: thanks for being there for me and cheering me up, all the best to u and find a great gf soon k? :) i oso miss u loads.. meet up soon..

4) Yang Junhan, Charlene
1st impression "oh my god, she is damn fair lo" i believe some of u will agree with me. haha.. she is a nice fren, always bringing me curry puffs ever since she knows i love old chang kee de. she introduce mi to breadtalk to work, tell me jokes. she will b e one if i have some academic things to ask de ppl.

wat i wan to say: all e best in ur uni..

5) Koh Yilun, Osama
he is a cute cute guy, staying at e east side. he is my 1st fren who is vegeterian. he likes to crap and it's quite funny. :) everytime we do proj in e west side, he will have to come down all e way. poor boy.. too bad now seldom meet up with him.. :(

wat i wan to say: all e best and stay happy and cute :)

thanks all of you for every little small things uhad done for me! u all have made me grew up and mature to wat i am now.. if not for u all, there will not be a me, Lee Sook Ling. thanks alot and i really really hope our friendship will last forever!

Cheers!!!

Hair sucks!!!!!!!!!

2005-05-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

yest, went to cut my hair. it was a diaster!!! i wanted to keep it long and e hairdresser cut it short. damn short. very god damn many layers.... i juz hate my hair now!!! it makes me so so so old.. F* that woman man!!!!

1st time cut til so unhappy and sad etc..... i guess i have to wait like 1 year to keep it long? hai~

went to darken my hair color today. quite cheap! but still cant appease my anger!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm bored...

2005-05-03T01:21:00.000+08:00

hai~ i'm soooooooooooooooooooooo bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sending resumes these few days, no replies yet. feeling abit dishearted as my accountacy fren only sent it yest and she received e call for interview. hai~~~~~~~~~

feel like toking to some1, but when i open up my msn, no1 is ard to tok to me.. every1 seems busy.. :(

Mushy entry

2005-04-28T15:50:00.000+08:00

this has gonna b a very mushy entry. pls bear with it. haha

the silly things he does:
1) Writing down our everyday relationship things in a book for the 1st year.

2) Going 7-eleven to buy me a sara-lee cake as my birthday cake, singing bday songs outside my hse whereby i'm inside e hse. haha

3) Toking every nite on the phone saying our common good night msgs.

4) Picking me after work, sending me to mrt station when i was working at breadtalk citylink that time.

5) Buying breakfast and lunch when i was working at breadtalk.

6) Walking with me from the start of Geylang to Katong Shopping Center (3 mrt stops) to search for my soya bean where we missed it at e start.

7) Alot alot alot more............

Thanks for being there for me whenever i need u.

What more can i ask to have YOU by my side?

wonder when u will read it hor. haha.. and also pls update ur blog leh, got alot of dusts le.

weather is hot, pls take care

2005-04-27T02:38:00.000+08:00

the weather is so hot these few days. dunno what's happening.

my stomach is painful these few days, is my "auntie" coming? i bet it's gonna b pain pain pain, crump crump crump. oh om god, i dun wan. guys, pls treasure ur ger cuz ger are so 辛苦.

another thing, my stomach/tummy is getting bigger and bigger. dis few days, i'm dunno wat does full means..... i'm forever hungry!!!! it's so dangerous, cant eat more cuz i'm getting fatter and fatter.

something i realise recently, i think i look very ugly, much uglier than e past. hai~

job job job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mixed feelings..

2005-04-25T01:56:00.000+08:00

alot of feelings. alot alot alot..

most of it will b abt stepping into e working society. i'm very afraid to go into a company that will need to lunch alone while others are in e group. say i scare of loneiness i admit.

really dun feel like finding a job. actualy, i'm dragging my foot to find..

my past working experiences are all working tgt wif frens. even attachment, i'm working wif my boyfriend. hai~ quite scare. i noe i'm useless..

hai~

emotions........

2005-04-17T02:48:00.000+08:00

thoughts processing at the moment.

future is blur to me.
wat should i do now.
i'm real scare.
scare of ugly society.
scare of loneiness.

not that i'm unwillngly to find a job.
it's just the fear in me.
stopping me from finding.

once close group.
now is distant.
i dun wish to end.

people enter and leave ur life.
y can't they enter and not leave.
no one can explain.

happy moments are easily forgotten.
unhappy moments are always remembered.
y.
no one can explain.

too emotional.
y.
no one can explain.

2005-04-15T02:06:00.000+08:00

yest, went to sp for e jam thing. saw rg's fren, xuemin. she's pretty! haha.. vivian's saliva is leaking out when she saw her. lol. after that went to orchard to eat. chill a few hrs at coffeeclubexpress. head home after that. i had INDIGESTION yest. i reach home having a veru big stomach and i was shivering. applied some oil and it works.. i alway believe in medical oil. haha.. the brand is on e advertisment de, e little ger say she poo poo after applying. :)

today, went town wif dear, settled our lunch at paragon's thai express. dear: hope u like it!

finally met that dearie and pass her e present. :) saw yun trying her prom nite dress.. wat a gd fig she have. haha.. 1st time toking to lester too. haha..

dear saw a jacket at 77th street, still considering buying anot. 40 bucks, brown color. wat do u all think?

yest, i watched a show on e tv acted by 王心平 and lu liang wei. it's a show abt a criminal having 性各分列. he has alot of characters, gay, boy, handicapped, 心里医生, cat etc.. really alot. he acted very well. he killed 30 womens and drill, mixed them into cement and use it to built a wall. it's digusting.

there is 1 心里医生 trying to lead him to where he hid e bodies but in e end e 心里医生 was 催眠 by him. it's horrible to have such criminals. it's hard to know wat they r thinking etc..

alrite, enough craps! hopefully i will have a nice day tml! :)

Abit sad.

2005-04-12T23:54:00.000+08:00

rG ask me to post de... haha

dis 2 days was spent in sch re-formating my computer. special thanks to lixing, hero, billy, eroy and mr romento.

eroy: creative loves u, u love creative! haha

i and dear will b helping out at sp tml. haha..

antoher thing, my dear receive e enlistment letter le.. 22nd july. i think i will miss him leh. how? u all muz find time to accompany me liao. haha.. hai~ must get a job soon..

heard that billy de is on june, all e best!

Let's gossip!

2005-04-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

miss me anot? a few days nv blog le.. alrite, this few days, i seem to be very enthu in sports. i went to swim today. it's so comfortable. i plan to take up courses in future like yoga/pilates. good for keeping fit. but dis is provided that i can find a stable job lo.

i found 1 fren oso wanting to put braces. haha.. happy!

dis week's i-weekly, i read something, let's gossip abt it!

it's a short article saying abt a celebrity commenting abt e charity show:

dis celeb complained to e make-up ppl saying that dis few years she had been doing those dangerous stunts and e danger is increasing every yr. she didnt know that the producer of the charity show was around oso. the article oso says that she is those type very emotional in the show and willingly to perform e stunts on the show. and they concluded that her acting skills are gd. lol

who do u all think is dis celeb?

my ans will b post in e next entry! lol

Sorry dear,

2005-04-07T18:50:00.000+08:00

alrite, this entry is for Mr Romento. some things i can't bring myself to tell u on phone that's y i decided to use dis way.

these few days i seem very cold to u. yA. Sorry. i juz dun feel like going out or talking as i know i'm easily irritated. i wanted to reduce the tension that will possibly occur. sorry..

and also sorry to t20s for not going to e ktv.

2005-04-07T00:20:00.000+08:00

went town wif my fren to shop for her prom nite things. it's so hard to find. *phew.
surprise to see hua at wisma.

these few days, my mood is just like the weather --> rainy, stormy, unexpected, sometimes happy. well, i dunno the reason. hai~ sorry dear cuz i throw temper..

these few days i learnt something. u cannot force for a thing that you desire to happen. no matter how hard u try, how many times u try, it juz can't work. maybe it's time for me to lossen up and juz let things go natural. no point forcing :)

that's all folks!

My neighbor

2005-04-06T00:27:00.000+08:00

shld blog something abt dis.

when i was small, all the units are occupied by chinese.. after that 2 families starts to move away. den new chinese neighbours came. they are so heartless lo, sell it to indians.. not i racist or wat lah, their house will have those curry lah, chillies etc smell almost everyday. like that still ok lah cuz it's their culture ma.

worse, they have kids lo.. running ard, taking my hse de joss stick. even the grand pa pa carry his grand child to take the joss stick meant for the heaven god. the grand pa pa is very scary de lo. his eyes like staring at u, there was once when i'm opening the door and tilt my head up, i suddenly notice the grand pa pa staring at me in his hse. shocked man.

den the owner oso very weird de lo, come out and talk on telephone de. !#%&(&(^$@@#%^^ where my room is facing the corridor de. his cigar smell will also fly into my room lo. smelly..

the small ger will actually shh shh at the corridor lo.. so dirty. some times, the ger will come out of the hse naked. really omg.

worse of the worse, my neighbour is forever changing.. a few mths dis face, a few mths another new face. i dun even noe if he's a bulgar or a neighbour lo.

recently, there is a new neighbour. they are still alrite lah.. at least not as bad as the other one lo. but dis one is a chiongster on washing clothes. the kitchen de poles are full, the bar on the corridor oso full.

there's a round thing used for hanging clothes etc and it was full of underwears.. regardless of size, gender or color.

so that's e end of story, my house is facing 2 indian families and they are getting to know each other le.. hai~ more complaints to come le.. sob sob

Thanks for e response!

2005-04-05T02:49:00.000+08:00

all right, i conclude most ppl will choose abortion.

my view - oso abortion.. i dun think i will be able to handle e stress and everything.

it's a boring nite, i juz finish watching i guess. saw this section where gers wear braces. actually i have been planning whether to put on myself. my tiger teeths not nice leh.. but i hear that it's very pain de..

do u all advise me to put?

Nice sleeping weather

2005-04-04T16:38:00.000+08:00

intended to go out with weiz, but it was raining so we sleep. haha.. quite bored at home.. i believe alot of us oso.

got a qns, i think i asked some before,

what will u do if u find that ur bb inside ur wife/urself 's stomach is a retard? would u choose abortion or bear up the responsiblilty to let him into dis world?

u all can write long long de comments.

Town-ing day

2005-04-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

the 2 lovable sweetie pies are not here today.. so sad..

my morning was spent on washing my future bro-in-law's car. it's my 1st time and it was god damn tiring.. my spine is going to break liao lo. after that, acc my dear to have lunch and saw Mr. Tay PH aka Santa on the way. he is so guai, going his grandma's hse.. nowadays, hard to find leh..

after that, met my mum and sis in town and whole day was spent on shopping. i think i long time nv shop liao lo, stamina very weak. haha.. tiring day..

oh ya, i went to have my lunch at thai express.. it's so nice.. very nice.. very very nice.. the tom yum soup, oh my god.. haha.. my recommendation, although it's abit salty.. ahaha..

end le.. tired :) nice day ahead!

i'm back..

2005-04-02T23:22:00.000+08:00

this few days was purely studying.. sian.. finally it's over, i have graduated le. haha.. special thanks to dear for accompanying me to study.

after exam, went out wif the t20s. movie, ktv. i find eye 10 is not as bad as some ppl had commented lah.. i was blocking my view with my jacket. haha.. i admit i'm timid lah.

juz went to imm, and i saw this guy screaming at his wife. saying "your bloody eyes cant c ar?" i was like wat the fuck are u doing lo.. i think his wife is from china. it's very sad to c these kind of things. he juz want someone to carry on his family line which is very very bad lo.. i hate this kind of guy. if i'm that lady, i will give him a tight slap. haha... he DESERVE it..

this made me start thinking abt the vietnam brides in singapore.. are they suffering in silence or enjoying the love that their husband gave. hai~ i certainly hope is the second one.

continue more..

:)

2005-03-28T20:46:00.000+08:00

this few days, went to dear's hse nearby to study.. more and more morons are out.. machiam 7th mth ghost festival like that..

yest, there are additional 3 chinese morons... a butch of ah-lians.. throw chinese ppl face... sit down there, tok and tok and tok. other than that, they even use their hp to play music.. it's very loud and the music is like those disco de lo.. omg.. old-dated lo.. den they were saying wat sparks.. dear and i was like "wtf, sparks?" damn damn old-dated lo... sparks is already demolished le bah.. haha..

alrite, enough of the morons talk..

Today,

went to dear's hse to study.. it's a much better place.. :) den zh and rG join later on.. reach home, had dinner and accompany my parents to watch the hong kong oldies singers vcd.. from young, i had been watching them.. i just find them incredible.... they may be old, but their vocals are very very good, the songs they sing are nice.. sometimes i feel that younger generations oso cannot fight with them. their looks are also kept very well.. familiar names like Lee Xiang Qin, Jing Ting etc.. rings a bell to u? shld end here le..

Messages:

1)
To Dear, rG, Zh, Billy, Glen and rest who are taking QLA:

GOOD LUCK for tml.. rem to check properly before handing up. :)

2)
To Dearie Sher,

saw ur blog.. pls take extra extra care of ur stomach.. AVOID hot and spicy food k? :)

Studying day no 1

2005-03-26T23:36:00.000+08:00

first of all, i would like to thank every1 for commenting.. keep it on!

it's studying day.. find it hard to concentrate.. haha.. trying hard.. went down dear's place to study. suppose to go to study corner but den alot of moorons are there.. not i racist lah but they cant simply cant understand english. they are down there smoking, laughing, performing stunts.. we were like wtf man..

yest nite, went through all e friendster testi that my frenz had written for me. it's so sweet.. :) thanks all.. overall, the comments are "Ling is a quiet, shy ger" am i one? haha..

more studying to go.. sian.. jia you guys..

y i didnt dare to go out alone?

2005-03-26T01:15:00.001+08:00

hrm.. well, this entry is for U as you requested.. lol.. more inner feelings de.. haha

From young, i am like a bird kept in cage.. during primary sch days, i was only allowed to step into jurong east central areas wif my frens on the reason to go library.. i seldom go out wif frens and mayb due to my character, i dun like to mix ard.. that's e reason y i dun like to get into a new environment.

i always want to find a few frens, get close to them and stick to them for e rest of my life.. that's it.. this results in my small social circle. yet in my heart, i always wish that i'm a more outgoing, friendly person.. well, i'm contradicting my character.. as a matter of fact,
i hate loneliness.. i simply detest being lonely..

mayb i tend to think too much.. to e extend that normal ppl will not think of.. it's kind of weird at times.. haha...

i have a feeling that 1 person shopping is like very lonely, that feeling is not i want, and i dun like ppl to see me lonely oso.. u can say i'm a mummy's ger.. i like to depend on others juz like leeches. in the past, i depend on my mum, my sis. now i depend on my dear, my sis..

sometimes when i'm alone at home, i will not go out and buy food partially is laziness.. i rather cook or dun eat.. even if i'm out alone, it will only b a short while..

up to e age of dunno wat, shld b sec sch, that was my 1st time ordering fast-food.. i think.. kind of pathetic rite? since young, i seldom tok to guys.. i have a wall, a thick thick inner wall built up in me to shut all men away.. perharps it's due to my upbringing.. den slowly as my age grows, i started to be a little more independent..

Poly life plays a very impt part of my life,

from sem 1 i have sherlyn, weiren, ruoyun, yilun, charlene my IS close pals to teach me to be more outgoing and daring.. drinking beers, staying overnite, sitting by e poolside watching the stars etc.. more to come i really hope. i'm really thankful to all of U(s).. it's really a blessing to have u all to kick the start of my poly life.. juz to let u all noe, i really really treasure our friendship..

from sem 3 onwards, i have my T20 buddies, real playful buddies.. to push me to a well of happiness, enjoyment, crapping etc.. of cuz including rG and ur brother gr.. haha.. i treat u 2 as my T20 buddies.. i juz hope that my friendship will last a long long time.. more chalets to come.. haha

not forgetting a very impt person that really made me into a very very crappy, daring to tok, daring to say cold jokes person, my beloved dear.. thanks to U, my dear..

thanks to all of U.. it's U, U, U... yups, it's U... thanks for all encouragements, and lessons taught about how to be a crappy perosn.. haha..

yups, i'm still learning.. hopefully i will be a more outgoing person.. more individual outings.. cheers..

frenz, buddies give me some ways to counter my "weirdness" haha...

Chalet.. more chalet!

2005-03-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

alrite, my turn to blog abt chalet stuffs.. enjoyed my chalet wif my beloved poly mates.. it's fun, crapping, cooking, alot of photo taking session.. haha..

Day 1
reached there quite late.. while on e journey, tok to mei had laughings and crapping.. haha.. supposed to meet gr and rg, but we went ahead with drinks, sugar and kh's favourite, sour plums which went missing throughout e chalet. haha

reached there.. 1st impression, i think i went there b4.. next is.. "what a big chalet they have!" and next, "what a big tub of "dao hua" water!" haha credits to ah boon.. unpack some things and off we go joining e others. they were playing mahjong and den i stick ard with kh since he is e only 1 not playing.. soon, it's cooking time..

Proudly presents our master chief, Mr. Law Kay Hui.. he was e main cook for e chalet.. the foods cooked by him is up to standard k. no play play man.. den we gers take over, which is a flop. haha.. think now guys are much better den girls.. haha.. e rest of the day, eat and eat and eat, drink abit only. haha

didnt manage to have a gd slp that nite.. so went out to e living room and saw kh and gr there.. tok and watch tv wif kh until he left.. after that, joined mei to slp on e floor.. but long after den i switch to e guys' room to continue my beauty slp. haha..

Day 2

lunch soon.. after that was some chattings wif e guys.. next Steamboat time.. abalone soup.. yummy!! every1 is rushing to e steamboat once the lid is opened.. it's fun snatching for food. haha..

throughout, phototaking sessions.. my 1st time taking alot of pics.. games games and more games.. alchol, food, watever was e punishment.. we finish 8 bottles of wine and 6 cans of beer for a 3 days 2 nights chalet... horrible? i think i gain weight man.. need to execrise soon..

Day 3

time to pack and home we go.. sad.. but this is e chalet i enjoyed e most although everything is indoor.. alot of us really wish to continue to have more and more this kind of chalets.. rite guys?

pretty long entry.. hope u r not bored.. photos up soon.. will get tips from sheryln as to how to post pics up.. :)

i'm back!

2005-03-24T12:26:00.000+08:00

hi guys, i'm back... haha.. slping real soon.. more updates on chalet. :)

Lazy pig, that's me

2005-03-22T14:10:00.000+08:00

hilo.. the time now is 2.10pm. by right i shld b on my way to chalet, but well, i'm still at home. haha.. and worst, i juz wake up. oops.. yesterday nite was so hot that i cant get into slp until 3.30. tossing and turning on my bed, somemore more muz soft soft turn if not my sis sleeping below will b cursing and swearing at me. haha..

Next thing, i haven pack my bag. i'm such a lazy bum man. throughout my beauty sleep, alot of msgs and calling.. but i still get back to slp.. my sis always scold me a pig which i admit. for most couples, gers will b e one giving guys morning calls but for my case, it's reverse. haha. sorry dear.. i will try to change :) try only hor, dun expect much. lol

all right, i shld now get prepared and set off soon.. more updates in chalet when i'm back..
bye guys..

Another simple day..

2005-03-22T00:57:00.000+08:00

yups, another simple but nice day. today is spent wif dear, so cosy moments.. :) going to neighbourhood to eat etc.. how i wish life is so relaxing.. haha..

tml gonna be my class chalet. look forward to it.. guys and gals, we shld have fun.. Glen told me e programs - drink eat drink eat.. haha

this few days i'm always online toking to ppl.. haha.. dunno y juz feel like it.. sorry if i distrubed some of u. hehe.. hai~ gonna study after my chalet.. hopefully i can.

shld i be blogging abt my daily life, or u all find it boring? give me ur comments... :)

Simple Day

2005-03-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

spent my whole day at home with my 2 bao beis. play wif them etc.. simple but happy day.

nowadays, e tv really dun have nice shows for me to wath man.. sian... ended up sleeping lo.. today, my niece juz called my name. "Small yiyi name - shuling" it's so heartwarming... :)

short entry today... nites.

i need help in using blogger. anyone?

2005-03-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

went out again.. today, went to the east side of spore. the expo.. the adidas sale was ok only. didnt buy anything except for chalet stuffs.. went wif kayhui, billy and dear. as usual crapping etc..

feeling weak dis few days.. mayb due to that day nv eat.. i eat very little dis few days man.
now here pain there pain.. hope i can regain my appetite cuz eating is an enjoyment.

after that, i went to bugis MYSELF.. yes, myself.. 1st time towning myself.. e feeling is quite relaxing and free.. not bad.. can have more next time..

hurray... tml is sun.. my bao bei(s) coming.. haha.. finally can play wif them.. miss them alot...

Crazy day..

2005-03-19T02:30:00.000+08:00

went to the studyinaustralia fair today supposedly. but we headed a diff hall - the food festival event. haha.. we were like refugees sitting on cardboards to eat. haha.. nice experience. today it's my 1st time having a gastric i think. haha.. the food there is quite nice. ate alot.. up til now still blurping and that durain smell is getting out everytime. yucks..

after that, went into our targetted fair. once we went in, we were like shocked.. a pool of ang mohs.. stunt is the word.. my eng sucks like hell and yet i had to tok to them. although it's expected but cant help to shock.

after that, went to yulong's party.. quite fun, self-entertaining.. haha.. i was like a mad woman the whole nite. laughing and as usual joking things that r not funny at all.. i didnt drink man.. no idea wat happened to me..

there was a pt of time, i jumped up holding kayhui's hands.. lame.. i was trying to pull him away from the lizard i saw. however, he remained seated while i jump up. we 2 were laughing non-stop cuz no1 noes y i did this.. it was a cockroach actually. haha..

enjoyed my day alot.. wif the following company. sophia, xuemei, wanhua, kayhui, glen and my dear. thanks for all e laughings, calling glen's maid etc.. haha

nites folks..

What An Experience...

2005-03-18T00:35:00.000+08:00

Decided to start a blog a couple of weeks ago, so here it comes...

Chapter 1

today....

to me is a happy, guilty day. kinda mixed feelings day.

HAPPY!

got to meet up with the 2 impt figure in my dull poly life - Sheryln dearie and Yun sweetie.
Had some talks with e 2. haven met up wif them for abt 1 yr due to e school work. I feel very very very happy in the bottom of my heart. it has been so long.. real happy to chill out wif u all.. brighten my day..

special thanks to sherlyn dearie for bringing me to see those nice cars. that fellow is damn rich man..

it's a nice experience to be drive by ur fren and tok and tok.. it's my 1st time. it's a.. shld i say cosy or heartwarming.. feeling. not that i treat her as my chauffeur but it's like having an own space..

Guilty!

Today i indirectly cause sher's car to crash. real pai seh.. was kinda shock because it's e 1st time i'm experiencing and it's the 1st time i sat in her car and the OREO cookie's car juz slam into my direction. i was scared stiff, dunno how and wat to react. damn sorry to sherlyn.

juz hope that the OREO cookie will take the responsibility to pay cuz it's her fault. i hope that i'm not the curse..

feeling a little weak now.. abit sick.. shld continue my blog tml..

bye.

Posting within an hour

2005-03-17T17:44:00.000+08:00

Chapter 2...

feeling better after that talk wif dearie sher. i will open up (dun get the wrong idea) my mind. :) thanks for that consulting. shld have more mushy talks next time. hehe

overall i conclude,
- sher's driving skill r great.
- muz take pic down as an evidence
- muz be fiercer than e other driver

that's all folks..

p.s. thanks ren for calling immediately. :)